6/365 – 10 MINUS 21 (THINGS I DID BEFORE I TURNED 21) : BE IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT WON’T WORK

LDR PROBS

Statistics says 70% of Long Distance Relationships don’t work. It requires triple the stuff you put in a normal relationship – triple the trust, triple the love, triple the patience, triple the efforts you give in. Only a few survives. It takes two strong and brave hearts to make it work.  It is the hardest relationship to handle but one of the most treasurable of all the relationships.

I don’t have a brave heart. I easily cripple when something hurtful is happening. I am not that strong. I easily cry on the silliest things which struck my heart. I am not a fighter. I know when I lost the game. I know when to give up because there’s no point to fight anymore. But I can love as if I am one. I can love more than someone can ever love me.

I risked it all. I risked all my self for a relationship I know won’t work. I knew it. I knew it from the very start. But I still fought for it as if it is a normal relationship after all. I fought as if I am receiving all the love I was pouring in the relationship. I embraced it as if it would bring me forever.

Well, you guessed it. It didn’t end well. But it has taught me beautiful lessons in life of which I will carry as I wait for my eternity.

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2/365 – Number 4/ 11:37/ January 2

How can I forget?

The way your eyes looked at me

When mine were blurred by tears

The way your lips were sealed

You don’t feel it anymore

Saying the words which caressed me

No I guess I won’t be hearing it anymore

Oh, I can still feel it all, I’m still struck so deeply

All of what it made me feel, I remember

The way your body shifted away in time

And there goes all my fears

Happening before my eyes, I’m weak

I told you I’m weak; I guess you didn’t hear

When I revealed my naked self in your eyes, did you see?

Did you? Did you feel my love, dear?

In that secluded place, I breathe

Through your love, I live; felt like a heap but it was all I need

Your hands don’t feel right when they found me near

It’s not the same anymore; the feeling

We shared was now burned; I’m screaming but there’s nothing you can hear

It was not mine to hold anymore; your heart

Which I embraced to protect with all of me

No it’s not mine anymore.